I mean like awareness that, just under the surface, there are deep explorations waiting for the right time and place to emerge; things you’ve set aside or placed on the back burner but will tackle eventually/many you already have tackled.
Are you deeply self aware of these interests like some kind of list? If so, are these interests deeply connected in your mind to your past explorations and interests like some kind of road map or branching tree structure of thought?
Sorta related, I’ve made a conscious decision not to get into programming. I know myself, I couldn’t possibly dabble. If I cracked open that box, I would deep dive so hard that it would consume my life, I would have no self control. That’s not the kind of life I want to live. I try actively not to learn too much about the inner workings of software when I use it, for fear of falling down the rabbit hole.
What do you do for a living/what are you into that isn’t super deep in some way? What field did you rabbit hole into in the past that makes you go, “never again”, now?
I’m just an extremely logic/math-oriented person. Analytically improving systems is my passion. It’s a trait I can apply quite well to pretty much any aspect of my professional and personal life, but because it’s only a part of the picture I can find a nice plateau before I go overboard.
Programming is basically pure, distilled analytical system improvement. If I started, I’d get caught in a recursive, branching spiral of logical structures to tinker with. There’s too much to do, it’s too powerful, it fits together too well, and it’s too logical. It looks like heroin to me