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Cake day: July 14th, 2023

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  • I’m finishing my masters right now. With fairly bad grades that is, because I really don’t care about putting in any effort anymore. Which probably means that just like with my equally shit bachelors degree I won’t be able to get a proper engineering position. The thing is that if you apply even to entry level positions, companies usually have more than enough candidates that don’t took 10 years to finish college with barely passing grades. And even on the off chance that a company is desperate enough to hire you, it’s usually a really bad one. I’m currently working as a student. Which pays very good by the hour, but is limited in the amount of hours you can work. So yeah while I get a decent hourly wage, it’s a lot less money monthly than even the worst paying trade jobs. And I’m prohibited by law to take on more hours or a second job while enrolled college (or more precisely the employer is not allowed to give me more hours). I also earn a little money on the side but all together is just barely enough to cover the bills. So yeah, don’t be like me and push yourself into a dead end where you’re too overqualified for unskilled labor, too inexperienced for skilled labor and too financially unstable to start over.


  • I’m from a culture where it is completely normal to live with your parents for essentially their entire lives. The issue is that as an immigrant family to a culture where it isn’t, makes me seem weird by comparison. I also have some of the worst luck there could be. My parents idea of success is to get a very good education, get a high paying job, support the family. There’s only one small problem. I fucking despise academia or academic institutions with all my soul. It took me 8 years to finish a 4 year degree and 4 years for a 2½ year masters. Additionally when I finished college, COVID hit hard and finiding a job was impossible since most companies stopped hiring. Now that I finish my masters we have the AI bubble and companies stopped hiring again. I never worked a real job my entire life, only research assistant, or student jobs. I have zero savings since those jobs barely pay above minimum wage. It fucking sucks. In any group I’m constantly the most educated looser there is. It makes you look repulsive to the point where I really hate talking about myself in person. I’d rather would have done an apprenticeship some 10 years ago and would have had a steady, less paying job, than this worthless engineering degree and zero real job experience. The issue is that now the cost of living is way to high to afford living on an apprenticeship salary for a few years, which is way below minimum wage. I spend essentially more than 20 years in non-stop education and it ground me down mentally to the point where I don’t even have motivation to keep on living. Literally, Fuck My Life. If anyone wants it, take it. Seriously, anybody, just put me down like a wounded animal.






  • Transparent eyelids. Luckily this didn’t happen on the road. So one day I was laying in bed playing on the Steam Deck, waiting for that wave of tiredness to hit so I could easily fall asleep. Well, when the tiredness finally hit I was driving this truck on a long straight road in the game. My eyes slowly closed and it was as if my eyelids had become transparent. I was still seeing the road crystal clear, still going straight not even noticing that my eyes were shut. After about 15 seconds I open my eyes and the truck was flipped over in a ditch. Freaked me the hell out and showed me how devastatingly easy it is to fall asleep behind the wheel without even noticing.


  • There only human by biology. You know there are debates when the first emergence of the modern human happened and what the signs were. It could be the first man made tools, the use of fire, etc. In my opinion it was the discovery of a body that had a healed broken leg. This means that some several tens of thousands of years ago, one of our ancestors broke their leg and others from their group nursed them back to health. Maybe they couldn’t hunt anymore, maybe they couldn’t carry anything heavy anymore, but the fact that there was every reason to let that human die to not make the pack weaker and they didn’t is for me a sign of pure humanity. That CEO went every day to their job and let the people that needed help die. The worst part is, it wasn’t even for a good reason. A predator does the same thing, it waits for the weakest to be at their most vurnable to kill them safely. Except a predator does it to survive. That CEO did it for one reason and one reason only. The Number™ must go up.

    Luigi shouldn’t be trialed for murder, maybe violence against animals, but calling that CEO an animal is to high praised. Animals live at least in some sort of balance with their environment, they know when to stop so there’s going to be enough left for the next time. Leave pieces of shit like that CEO to their own accords and they will take everything they can and leave nothing behind.









  • The villian being actualy some misunderstood broken character and that from their perspective they aren’t doing anything wrong.

    Remember when in Hollywood the bad guy was the bad guy because they wanted to do bad things, and the hero was the hero because they wanted to do good things. And at the end the good guy defeats the bad guy and saves the day. Now every bad guy must have this complex back story of abuse or some wrong doing against then, and now their evil actions are just some justified misguided revenge against the world. FUCK THAT.

    I am 90% sure that the last 20 years of this being normalized by mainstream media has let to us not properly punishing literal real life pedophiles and power hungry sociopaths, because “Well we don’t know their side of the story… there has to be due process.” Yeah, not long ago the due process was that people got linched for doing a fraction behind closed doors of what degenrate billionaires do in the open today.

    Moral of the story is that there’s a side to everything… NO there isn’t, there’s pretty definitve bad and pretty definitive good. Sure there are morally ambiguous topics, but Hollywood has been bluring the line on literal genocide, rape and murder just for the sake of not wanting to write an actual interesting story.

    Edit: I just want to drive home how much I despise that shit.