Having to wake up every morning and put my trust in people is the hardest thing I do everyday. I so very much want to believe there is good in everyone but all I have to do is look and I see what’s inside of many Americans hearts is hideous. So when I look at my burger and it doesn’t seem quite right, I’m suspicious. When I leave my car I lock the doors twice to make sure it’s really locked. I don’t keep anything personal in my work space, nothing I would care about losing. Nothing that means anything to me. When I am going through a rough patch I bottle it up inside. When my heart is as full as I can barely stand I pretend everything is just fine.

This is how I live and I wonder why I can’t connect with anyone. I’m always afraid that right behind my neighbors eyes there is a monster and I assume they think the same of me.