I think it wouldn’t be a good idea to go back to china
You should probably ask a therapist about this because the level of trauma is very subjective.
I saw something where they took an old WWII vet, with psychologists and others, to a city that he had fought in that gave him PTSD nightmares for decades. He was scared to go back, but when he did, his PTSD went away because he saw how changed everything was and you couldn’t tell that the war had happened. That allowed him to recognize that the danger was gone and over.
that’s very different from revisiting a place that something bad happened just because, though. This was 40 years later in a city that was rubble when he last saw it.
That’s the sort of case I was thinking about. All depending! But it probably doesn’t hurt to overwrite bad memories with bland ones. And as in your case, time is a factor.
Going back to a place where you took an ass beating last month? Nah. Same place in 10-years? Likely helpful.
I know most internet people are ready to offer psychological advice at the drop of a hat, but this is really a question for a therapist because every situation is different and we don’t know your struggles even close to enough to speculate.
This doesn’t seem like something to rush into, personally.
Don’t visit alone. Go with someone. Being alone would lead you to over-think and having someone to talk would take your mind off it.
What do you hope to gain from visiting?
Idk, I feel like I want to just “face my fears”, like just go, “process” the memory, to make my brain realize the event is over, get some good food, make some good memories so that the traumatic experience isn’t the first thing I recall whenever that place gets mentioned.
Like its just there’s something in my brain that urges me to go for some reason. But I also remember those emotions that day, the fear. So its a conflicting decision to make.
Its complicated, hard to explain.
It kind of sounds like a form of exposure therapy.
I’ve done it, I didn’t like it, can’t say whether it did me any good. But your trauma is different from mine, so don’t take this as even a faint endorsement.
I don’t have any direct experience with that, and I can’t say if it’s a good or bad idea—but I’d say if you’re going to do it, do it with some friends and try to create some positive new experiences to overwrite the traumatic ones.
Be sure to eat a fistful of shrooms first
How to get arrested 101 (it’s not a drug-friendly location btw)
I was just fuckin around, dont try that, lol
Shockingly, people really can’t tell when you’re tripping balls unless they get a good look at your pupils and make note. ⚫️_⚫️
I’ve been falling off the Earth and had perfectly normal conversations. A few times, “I’m sorry. I’m tripping my balls off here and not making sense.” 🫨 No one ever new. LMAO, I’ve talked to cops!
I traveled to the city where I was born recently. Its the first time I’ve been there in twenty years that I haven’t felt anxiety making the trip. The reason is simple. My parents died last year and now that I know I’m not going to run into them I’m fine.
